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well. made the move. diary x. *^^*. yay. i think i'll be blogging there for .. always. yupp. and well. unlike diaryland blogs, there you can choose to lock certain entries. yay. diaryx rcks. w00t.



:: White Flag ::
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 8:13 PM |

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no matter what i've told myself, you've never left my heart. and i realise that the thoughts of you are etched too deeply on the tablet of my heart and the memories of you are stamped all over my life's journey. i cant take it any more u. do u know the effect you have on me... do you at all? open your eyes and see the girl who would lay all else at your feet


::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 6:27 PM |

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siigh. -feels sick- i think it's automatic. i always feels sick before saturday. haha.
yesterday. thursday. first aid course. sucked. well. not realli. was quite funn actually. just a bit sto0pid. our instructor was nice.. examinor was weird. bwaha. stupid. it's fun being in bandages. realli. well. this sounds oddly familiar. OH. i blogged abt this. and mi comp hung on me. abt expected... actuallllli. it hasn't hung on me for quite some time. ^_~. weird. niwaeeee. yea. we passed. i think abt everyone passed. yitian's examinor was particularly interesting i would say. lol. eager to get home indeed. and pontianaks. eh. *^^* well. then after that. decided to pon netball training. i rawk. (= uhh. walked around.... *drumroll*... POPULAR. talk about boredom. boliaoness. siiigh. yeah. wahax. decided to go home. uhh. missed one train on purpose first. boreeedom rmbr? =D then.. yeah went home. plonked down in front of the comp. weirdiness. and then zhi wen called. O_o. daddddyyyy. WAHAx. uhh. went to dunman high. [arrrrgggghhhhhhh] nvm. -angelic smile- so much for supporting them. vell. suppose you could 'support' even if you were like outside the fence yah? *^^* well. after their two games, which meant we were waiting outside the school for more than an hour, btw. uhh. we all got on the bus. all for some of us to get off one stop away. LOl. walked to the next busstop and get onto another bus. funnnay. 12. went to whitesands... for. uhh. 'dinner'. yupp. mummmmmmy daddddyyyy. fweeee. well. they both don't mind. ***i think*** whee. parents are naaaggggggggyyy. w00ts. uhh. then we went to the library. which was pretty interesting, personally. ;P yeaaa. and then hooome. uhh. at 9. oops. =P. yeah. bleh....
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 10:48 PM |

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I am falling down
Try and stop me
Feels so good to hit the ground
You can watch me

::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 2:11 PM |

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I know, I know I've let you down. I've been a fool to myself. I thought that I could live for no one else. But now through all the hurt and pain, It's time for me to respect the ones you love mean more than anything. So with sadness in my heart, I feel the best thing I could do is end it all and leave forever. what's done is done, it feels so bad. what once was happy now is sad. I'll never love again, my world is ending

I wish that I could turn back time. 'cause now the guilt is all mine. can't live without the trust from those you love.. I know we can't forget the past. you can't forget love and pride. because of that it's killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes. tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down, it all returns to nothing, I just keep letting me down, letting me down, letting me down. In my heart of hearts, I know that I could never love again. I've lost everything, everything. everything. that matters to me, matter in this life.

I wish that I could turn back time. 'cause now the guilt is all mine. can't live without the trust from those you love. I know we can't forget the past. you can't forget love and pride. because of that, it's killing me inside

It all returns to nothing, it all comes tumbling down, tumbling down, tumbling down.


::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 1:38 PM |

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i . am . going . to . blog yes, that was determination
sigh. let's see how much i can blog.
this is amusing. proof of exactly how sto0pid kenneth tan is. "you are allowed to come to school in PE shirt and colloids" - INET. for god's sake. it's CULOTTES. colloids... are stuff to do with chem. and suspensions. and solutions. and chem. and toe and me at popular. ... laterrr. listening to clay. yesh. clay aiken. be shocked. laterr.
sigh. i shalt blog from .. monday. wow. four days. sigh. i will survive.


MONDAY
erm. went to skool.. for speech and drama stuff.. and netball training. fack. well. errrrm. let's say... before s and d.. we were supposed to attend assembly. at the parade ground. and .. none of us wanted to. so instead of standing for like 10 mins.. we ended up taking a looong walk around the skool. as in, outside the skool compound. yupp. and we were walking out like when all the prefects were already like assembling at the front. and then right outside .. ms ng got out of a taxi. and she was like wat are you ppl doing here. yeah. and so was really funny. and we walk on. and who do i spot. deborah tan. yeshh. how fuunnnn. and she was like quite far away. and we slowed down.. walking really slowly. i think she would have wanted to uh speak to us.. but we were too far. fwee. um. speech and drama. we were supposed to be watching grease. well. i was supposed to. i got sick of it after the first disc. read after that. [shields head from one-eleveners] then eh. netball. ouch. seriously you can only spend so much time in the same position looking up at the damned net before your neck hurts like hell. *thanx jingli* pokk. yeah. and i'm going to dieee. i've been practising on the bball court. ie. the basketball hoop. without the board. but nevertheless. the bball hoop is a lot bigger than the netball hoop. and the board.. gives u a sense of focus in some way. now i cant rmbr wat else i did. i think i went home. ...... -shrug- wait. no. met dunmanians. went darr's hse. played capt ball. yea. that's... all i can rmbr. OH. we went to parkway first. and...erm. they met their teachers there. at mph. and ran out squealing. wat can i say. i was behind them, look of bewilderment on face. siigh.



TUESDAY
nothing much. lazed around at home the whole day. doing......... nothing much. let see.... they went ice-skating. and i.... didn't feel like going. i dunno. i think i went crazy. but anyway. so i didn't go. and i read. the whole day. as in like.. i didn't quite use the comp. i just .. READ. oh vell. yeah.
bweah. i din noe tuesday was so boring. i could have been out but noo i was at home reading the whole day. loser.



WEDNESDAY
ahh. went skool for.. sec 4 farewell. sto0pid waste of time if i may say. but yeah. supposed to be two hours.. we got off at 900. so ... went to.. um. amanda's house. i noe i was with someone.. but now i can't rmbr. :| . 'twas either toe or meera. or maybe not. is my memory that horrible??? nooo. i was with simran. coz toe was gg out. and meera was staying back for the sto0pid script for s and d. yupp. =D. so anyway. the void deck. cz it was raining. and eh. we sorta broke one of those lighty tubey thingy. oh. i had tom,*hutututu with a pottu*, and harry on my arm. and my fingers. jinx them. humph. then went to the basketball courts... play for coupleof hours.. till abt 1. amanda had to go off ...for training, zhiwen to ...dunno where..and sandra *:|* was.. going off. blah. and yun yuan for training. so. ...... i went hommmeeee. the rest of them apparently went off to yuhui's hse. siigggh. bath.. uh. practise guitar. vell. ended up sleeping. >.< (= zen went for guitar... which well. sucked. 'twas cold. as usual. that studio is officially the coldest place i go to regularly. so anyyyway. after that... went back to the court at amanda's hse. sandra and audrey weren't there. *nodd* some friends of zhiwen's were. -no. i'm not implying anything- daryl.. and jon au yong. yea. -amused- but anyyyway. played... for quite a short while. siigh. darren losti his phone. bleh. so we... searched. and.. latterr. all left one by one. mark and me left. waited for amanda. followed her up to her house then dragged her along to interchange. oh. sniffed glue. YUCk. warning: do not ever buy craft glue from spotlight. euck. took 291. went for dinner. bleh.



w00t. i'm done. thursday in a new entry.
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 11:12 PM |

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sigh. i didn't want to blog.. but..........
crappe. the whole of today. wait. today's tuesday. i thot it was sunday. ok nvm. ummmm.
ack. okie. i really dun feel like blogging........... so um. tomoro.



We'll never be apart
We'll see the same stars
Just close your eyes
And I'll be where you are


::regret courses through her body. and she wished it would stop. to end it all::
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 10:44 PM |

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It's like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me

::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 10:32 PM |

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Though far away I know you listen
The stormy night will seem to glisten.
The clouds that part let light shine through
But all I seem to think of is you.




Though life is mortal, love is not. Do not play with broken hearts.



::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 1:15 PM |

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i noe the links aren't updated but ... let's just say it won't be up so soon. -is compiling a whole list of links-



it's been a rainy after noon. now i'm staring at the moon


sigh. i feel like doing it again. all over again. for the pain. i'm sorry.
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 9:55 PM |

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i have decided to update my links. congratulate me.
and tag with your url if you want me to link you. coz i might forget. and tell me to remove it if you don't want it linked. coz i noe how frustrating it is to have your link all over when you don't want it to be there. fwee.
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 8:17 PM |

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Could it be yesterday
I coulda swore the same thing
happened just the other day
Put on the spot
Now what am I gonna say
If I tell them who you are will they think that I'm insane
Do I really care?
Well yes and no, maybe so
'Cause if they don't think you're real how will they ever know
So I won't stop
'Cause even if they laugh at me
It doesn't change a thing about what I believe (what I believe)

I don't care what it takes
I don't care who it shakes
I don't care what they say
I'm gonna do it your way
Even if I'm afraid, don't wanna make you look fake
I don't care about anything it's not about me

You make me feel secure
You've given me your word and
now I know I'm sure
I was so messed up
Like a wheel you turned around
my fate
When I thought you were just
something up in outer space
But that's not the case
You're more real to me
Than what they make you out
to be on TV
Can you turn me up
'Cause you know we're getting serious
When we talk about the invisible
it's so clear to us (so clear to us)

I don't care what it takes
I don't care who it shakes
I don't care what they say
I'm gonna do it your way
Even if I'm afraid, don't wanna make you look fake
I don't care about anything it's not about me



::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 2:39 PM |

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sigh. my entry just disappeared. bweah. niwae. again.
yesterday sto0pid first aid course. sucked. james sissy ong confiscated my book. thanx to nicole, nicolette, dawn... and me. we were praticing writing with our left hands. :$ well. cept for dawn. lol.
anyway... i came straight home fter that. abit de amazing riiite. fwee. oh wait. meera i and shimram bought mrs field's first. ack. ack. ack. oh well. we ArE going to run 1.8 km on monday... so it's okie i suppose. sigh. and before that. pissing b****. f- pit. got booked. OUTSIDE SKOOL. along orchard road. for a damned PURPLE SCRUNCHIE. like. fuck off. despo idiot. tell you she's just desperate to book. bitch. it's like. you're with your frends after skool on a saturday having been forced back to skool. and still have to fo booking for offences like a PURPLE srunchie. i think i was pretty rude to her. hah. wateva. she was pretty lucky i din say anything to her face. sigh. the hatred some pits face. and some pits are nice. buti pretty much cant stand most of them. i mean shure sometimes you have to book coz there's either no way out or it's just too obvious. but for god's sake. ORCHARD ROAD. PURPLE SCRUNCHIE. and the only reason why i was wearing it was because my scurnchie was.. broken? geez. like so god damned loose it was either not wear it or still have my hair like spilling over my face. ie. letting it down. or a DAMNED PURPLE scruchie.


wateva. skipped punjabi skool. came home.. messed arnd with the comp for awhile. went to sleep. at... 4? yeah. woke up at nine. someone insisted that i had to eat dinner so... -erk- then eh. was *supposed* to go back to sleep at 10. =D but ended up staying on the comp till like 2. yeahh.. then sleeeeep until this morning like 10 plus. fweeee. pure heaven. never knew sleep could be so good. loll. sto00000pid. tomoro have to wake up so * early. speech and drama at EIGHT in the morning. sigh. horrible people. humph. then after snd those in nball carn practising. suppose i'll stay arnd. oh wait. shucks. i have to as well?!?!?!? ack. -bish jingli- pokkkkk. sighsigh. nvm. =P jingli and weixian are meanie pokks. dun ask why. coz i said so. yupp. -nodd- so. bleh. okiiieeee. shalt be going.. to do wat.. i dunno. i gotta read harry potter [yes i'm proud of myself i'm on the second book!!!!! [hahaz] thankies snehhaaaaaa. and meeeeeeerrrra. fwee] or scavenger. i'm supposed to return it to weixian by wednesday. sigh. or mess with templates. found one really nice one i'm gonna mutilate and use. i *think*. so... yea. ciao.



::her laughter rings... but she's torn within::
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 1:33 PM |

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-pissed- realli farnee mann. oh well. shant allow my mood to be ruined. SHIT. i'm crying. fack. wateva. what do those mean ANYWAY. hah.
shiokkk. shalt describe in not so great details about um. the after skool hours. yupp. first. the whole bunch of abt 30 one eleveners crossing the road and walking the busstop. then. poor priyaa had to leave. so now you have about 30 girls, minus some extremely embarrassdppl [ie me and a few others] hiding behind some ppl, waving to priya on 105!!! gosh. i mean like only three ppl got on. and priya had this whole grp waving at her. poor her. the whole bus was either staring ar us or her. oh. the other two ppl who got on the bus were margie and vic. yupp. and then the whole bunch of us go to kfc at fareast.




i'll continue this post sometime kae? really dun feel like blogging. ciao



::and the pain in her heart stings::
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 10:07 PM |

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FUCK OFF. i mean it. i'm sick of you. SICK AND TIRED of hearing about you.
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 9:38 PM |

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FWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

STATUS : LAST EXAM OVER

it's done. over. my life's screwed up. but i won't have to care for abt a week more. yupp. sho funn. *prays for the poor kiddos in D446* yepp. i'm sho nice. oh well. it's only an hour and a half. muaha.




suddenly feel unlike the me yesterday. feel sad. yeah. dunno larhs. fweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. simran's bored. we're in the shaw lab. and me and vidya are blogging. and simran was going to create a blog. until vidya reached over and turned her screen pink. and she din noe how to change it back. so she doesn't want to create a blog. and now she doesn't noe wat to do. and vidya told her to start studying geog for next. coz she's sick o last minute studying. LOLL.

sigh. be back later. feeeelings. i'll go try to do templates. i suck. i'm such a cheat. ohwellllll. buh buaizzz.







::and a smile crept upon her face::
::Wishing you were here...::=SharaN= | 10:59 AM |